Terrible struggle.

very very sick today yet have to work....
im glad she is concern for me... but i dont wanna let her worry so i put on a brave look.. actually im struggling like hell...
my asthma reacted back.. i hardly breathe... was like a string tied hard on my chest....some might thought im lying ... but to be honest im not... im suffering for headache.. due to sleepless nights...
sigh...

Now im truly fallen for you.. and same goes for you.. but are you sure ?

i been thinking everynight about you.. i hardly could sleep.. the moment i shut my eyes.. i gt a image of you...wads happening to me ?

after you told me some stuff... im nt so sure whether should i back out or perserve till the end ?

i been suffering the left hanging feeling.. its seriously very unbearable... u might think im dramatic or wad.. but that wad i've been suffering ? do i really a bad person till i deserve all this ?

am i that bad ? why all the hurtful things have been happening to me ?

i've been trying to change myself to a better person.. always look at couples with an admiring look... i envy how loving they are.. but some stuff is not what we can see throught our naked eyes... bu those sweetness they offered to each other.. was totally... touched.

Im just an average guy..

im really lost.. im nt sad that for myself.. but girl.. im really feel sad for you.. im nt lying at the transport.. i almost shed my tears.. but i was holding on.. u can say imma fragile guy.I really hope you can made the right choice for urself...

you might say we do not known each other long.. but i can tell you these my love for you might not lose to others.

everynight i've pining.. and im very very lost.. i need no consolation or wad... the purpose of typing things out its to let my mind a leak.. before its really explode.. sry readers... u might find it annoying ...you might say... dont forsake the forest just for a tree..

But is worth keeping a tree that you truly like rather then the empty forest..

How i wish i can know you earlier.. you are totally the girl im seeking for...

PS: no matter wad the outcome might be, i'll never regret loving you.. its my destiny...

Love you always..

Edwin.